Last fall and this winter/early spring have been two of the toughest "semesters" (this one was literally a semester; last fall wasn't) of my life so far. Last fall I was in Virginia working. This January I started school at Brigham Young University in Provo.
I think they've been tough times because I was finding out more of my flaws ^_^ I discovered I struggle with anxiety. It's manifested itself before, but never so strongly as this semester. I have a hard time staying spiritually strong on my own. Making wise money decisions is not a strong point I have. I allow my missing of people, such as my family, to get in the way of my productiveness.
They've been wonderful times because I have found 2 of the best friends I could ever hope to have. One in Virginia and one here in Utah. In Virginia I also found I love children. I loved them when I was teaching Primary in Missouri as well, but I didn't let myself see that >.< Being a mom would be rather terrifying, but I believe, with the help of others haha, that I would be able to be a mother.
As I was reading over old posts, because it's been a stinking long time since I've been on here, I was embarrassed by some of the things I wrote (mostly the one where I was super mad at my little sister), but I'm glad I wrote that down. I love her. Yes, she's still a stinker, but I talk to her on the phone sometimes, and she's just an amazing little person and I can only see her growing into a continuously amazing big person. Of course, I don't doubt that there will be future times when we're both frustrated with each other, but I am supremely happy that she likes talking to me and that we miss each other <3
It was rough going back to school after a year of not taking classes. I knew intellectually it probably would be, but it was a bit unpleasant actually experiencing it haha
Despite rough patches (...or rough stretches >_<) this semester has been pretty cool. I have met some really neat people and it's been pretty awesome. My Korean class/section was super cool and I miss it/the people in it.
In nine days I am leaving Utah for South Korea for almost 2 months. I'm going for a study abroad! Super excited and pretty nervous too. Nervous about flying so far on my own, nervous about speaking to people, nervous about social situations in the group. : ) BUT I'm SUPER excited too!
I am sad about leaving my friend here in Utah...she's taking classes here on campus during the spring term. But I'm coming back and we'll both be in Korea sometime in the future \^_^/
on a side note, I really want to hold a hedgehog. This is not my hand, and I have not yet held a hedgehog. This is a picture I found on a website when I looked up hedgehogs. 
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